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I'm home at last! Sorry I didn't have internet at our house in Alabama so I wasn't able to post except from my phone and that is super time consuming! But I'm back and ready to tackle this. I haven't gotten on the scale yet since we got back but I feel like I atleast maintained. I did great until the last few days! I got into the mind set that I only get to eat these foods once a year which is true but was it worth not losing the 1-2 pounds I could have last week? No...also my foot injury set me back. Today I start up again with Mrs. Chalene and I'm so looking forward to it! I have my goals posted all over the house so I am constantly reminded of what I'mk aiming for. Plus it helps to see my goals as I'm reaching for the fridge or pantry. Another part of this journey is getting to a better state of mind. I do this by reading Personal Development books. It makes you have a new perspective on life and keeps me in check when my mood gets crummy...like it is today. Every time I've started the car today Eli Young Band's "Crazy Girl" has been on. It makes me miss getting the butterflies in my stomach and having someone to hold me. Then again when would I have time...I mean I know I would but it would be busy life again. It was easy with Erik becuase we lived together so I didn't have to rush home to get Bailey to bed. Plus Bailey grew up with Erik in her life and if I found someone else I would have to wait til I was sure about that person before introducing them to Bailey. It's just way to complicated when you are a single mom. The last thing I need right now is stress so I'm going to try not to think about it and instead focus that energy on my workouts and eating right so that when I do find Mr. Right that I am where I want to be physically and emotionally.

Vaca Day 1...Turbo Day 5

I so debated all day doing this workout. It's 100 degrees in Gardendale, AL right now and the last thing I WANTED to do was TurboFire's longest workout in a small gym filled with windows and only one working air conditioner. I laid there as Bailey fought sleep and thought I'll just do two tomorrow...but was I really going to want to do two tomorrow on our first day at the beach...hell no. So I asked my mom to put Bailey to bed and I marched downstairs to the "fitness Center" aka three broke machines and a highly outdated treadmill. I popped in Fire 55 and pushed play...about 20 minutes...scratch that...2 minutes in I wanted to die. Did I quit? No I finished all except maybe 10 minutes because this lame thing closes at like 9:30. Now I have to figure out how to sneak into the room...into the shower...into my bed...without waking a two year old...ugh.
As for diet I did alright. I had my normal shake for breakfast, coffee at the gas station, a few walnuts for snack as we went. Grilled Chicken and Vegetables for lunch...the sour cream is where I messed up here. Then for dinner I grabbed a grilled chicken salad with vinegrette dressing and yogurt. I didn't even eat a single piece of pizza which is major self control for me and something I wouldn't have even been able to do a year ago! Well high hopes for tomorrow...we go to a famous Pecan Shop with all the "samples" aka "temptations" in the world...my favorite beach hangout restaurant for lunch, then finally the grocery store to grab my healthy necessities for the weak so I can atleast have some nutrition! Bed Time!